Sunday, November 29, 2009

I know Valentine's is a long way off but I wrote a (very much) early Valentine's poem for my beloved.. It's kind of short though.. So I hope to add a few more verses by Valentine's :)

On Valentine's, I declare
I'm yours, Pooh Bear
Your's for eternity, I vow
Forever your's, my love..

Wednesday, November 25, 2009

As you sow, so shall you reap
Make someone cry, so will you weep
Those faces, those memories, they taunt me
All my sins have come back to haunt me..

Sins in my blood run deep
Not one promise to my parents did I keep
This burden of knowledge does daunt me
Purged of my sins is all I want to be..

Friday, November 20, 2009

So many forks in the road ahead.. No matter what happens, I hope I have the time of my life :)

Time of your Life- Green Day

Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

It's something unpredictable, but in the end is right.
I hope you had the time of your life

First application to PhD.

That's right.. I completed my very first application to a PhD program today.. And I'd begun a week back.. Whew! Getting all my certificates in order, scanning them, converting them to pdf according to some highly specific specifications (would never have got this one done without my beloved's help), the essay and finally putting it all together.. man, I'm so glad it's done.. My beloved commented when I told him about the accomplished Mission Phd1, "I think you are happier about completing the application process than you will be if you are accepted." You said it, beloved :)

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Lunch and a movie..

I know the classic date is dinner and a movie but since my beloved and I are sort of in a secret relationship, we have to make do with lunch and a movie.. Though we've done this 'n' number of times, for some reason that I can't describe, today was special.. I felt much more loved and cherished than usual today, which is saying something, cos my beloved always makes me feel special when I'm with him..
Good times.. I've had plenty of those with my beloved.. Which goes to prove that it's not the times that are good but the companion :)

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Poems at midnight..

The best time for me to come up with poems is late at night past everyone's bedtime and definitely way past the time when I think I should be asleep if I don't wanna wake up groggy and grumpy the next day.. Last night was one such night.. I had been trying to come up with the perfect opening to my statement of purpose for the PhD applications.. Finally I decided it had to be a poem and last night, I managed to compose it.. Here goes..

Beyond the glass doors, I see
Such endless possibilities
Paths waiting to be tread
Lives waiting to be led
On my way, I hope to be
If only, I can find the key..

I admit it is a little cliched but I liked the line about lives waiting to be led.. Because I sincerely believe it.. I believe every action or thought of ours reveals infinite possibilities about the next action or thought.. And life may turn out to be completely different from what it would have been before we initiated that action or had that thought.. Even though that knowledge can be overwhelming, it is also comforting to the Arien in me.. that

I always have another chance to make things right.. To make things go my way..
Because, after all, tomorrow is another day :)

Another poem I composed yesterday is titled anger, the failing that tops my list of failings..

My heart is pounding in my head
Blood is rushing, crimson red
Eyeballs bulge, muscles tighten
Teeth clench and nostrils whiten

My anger no longer can I control
No anger management class left to enrol
No more peace, no hope of deliverance
I have crossed all limits of endurance

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Mission Big Black Bag

I'm not a star at Home Ec. and that's a well known fact :) But I've wanted a big, black bag for a really long time now and though I knew how to make it, I hadn't done it yet.. Today at around 2pm, I suddenly wanted to make that bag and once I decide I want something bad enough, I waste no time in getting it.. So, here's how the bag was made.. in just 6 hours.. Beat that :)

The fabric is cut and ready to be stitched.

The first stitches..

The strap goes on next..

Voila.. My very own big black bag :)

The bag in action ;)

Unfortunately, the ancient VGA camera on my cell phone doesn't do the bag justice.. sigh..

Sunday, November 8, 2009

There are so many kinds of together
But only one kind of alone

Together when your tiny hand grabs mom's huge finger
But you come into the world alone

Together when you share a joy with a friend
But then you go home alone

Together when you kiss the love of your life
But in your thoughts you are alone

Together with the people who have come to mourn you
But six feet deep, alone

There are so many kinds of together
But only one kind of alone

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

Convocation blues

So I'm finally and officially a postgrad but where's the excitement, the satisfaction? MIA!!
I might have been happier if I'd got good pictures of the 'much anticipated event'.. On the previous day of the event there was a row with my parents about the camera, with them accusing me of not having reminded them to get film for the camera (yes, we still own a stone age camera that needs film while everyone else I know has gone digital) and with me accusing them of having forgotten my reminder.. all of which was unnecessary coz there was plenty of time the next day to get film and I was gonna go get it myself the next day.. But parents will be parents.. they will get anxious and flustered and worried and then blame you for being the cause of it all..
What was the result of it all was that dad went off in a huff and must have got the film loaded in a big hurry at the shop and the film was not loaded properly.. So I never got any candids.. All I have are the stuffy pictures we had taken in a studio and I look absolutely horrible in them..
Things never seem to go right just when you want them to..